When someone gaslights you and wants you dead, then lies about wanting you dead. Your life changes. That is what happen to me. I will never be 100% and will need something to help me through and that is okay. I will always flashback, but now managing it better.
Your perspective on people changes, its scary.
There are ways to remember how you can trust people.
Look at consistent actions-if someone inconsistent, walk way. Do not engage or try to figure out intentions.
Know that your love ones will always be there to listen, consistent and do not judge and ensure they have boundaries and they respect your boundaries.
Remember your worth always.